There are all these songs that remind me of you. Of this whole thing. I never want to hear them again but I can't stop listening to them. They play in my head even when they aren't on. I just keep thinking back to it. How could I be so stupid? Has it really taken me this long to figure it all out? I always prided myself on the fact that I wasn't one of those dumb girls and now I realize that you've made me exactly that. I just want to pretend that it all never happened. I want to go back and do it all over and leave you out completely. I wish I'd never met you, never heard your voice. You seemed perfect and unattainable and all I wanted was to be with you and I'd have done anything to get there. And really? How stupid is that? What's so great about you? All my friends can see right through you and now so can I. It may have taken me a whole year but I can. And I realize now that I can do better. I don't need you. I don't need someone to tell me all these amazing things because it's all bullshit. I thought you were so mature and different from everyone else, but really you're generic and I realize now that you're never going to grow up and be someone I should be with. And as much as I would like to go back and undo all that and save myself this embarrassment, I'm glad it happened. I really am. I'm glad because I'll never fall for it again. And I don't care if all of this is cheese and corn because sometimes it's just necessary.
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I'm kind of feeling the same way the whole part of thinking back...wanting to do things over and forget someone...wishing I had never let his stupid actions get to me..but even though i have tried really hard to forget everything he has done...I've relized he will never change he weill never mature...so my feelings are a little different but similair also.
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