just let me sing you to sleep

I'm so tired. Completely and utterly exhausted, spent. Not in the physical sense, but the emotional and logical. I'm tired of thinking, and I'm tired of feeling. It gets me no where and everywhere at the same time. But the places it takes me aren't anywhere near where I want to go. Its as if I've thought and felt and confused myself all the way to the other side of the world and not even realized it. And when I do finally realize it, I want nothing more than to go home. But the journey home isn't as easy as I'd hoped, I can't figure out which way I came or where I live and its all my own fault. I wrote the map inside my head but I can't remember it with all these words and feelings floating around. Every one of my thoughts and feelings create a bigger road block and I can't get home. I can't get back to where I feel comfortable, where I feel okay. I can't get back to the only place I want to be. And I wish I could just stop thinking and feeling because thats the reason for this unbearable mess. If my feelings and my thoughts just ceased to exist then I could go home, I could be okay again. I could feel normal again, maybe even feel good. But I can't. Its not that simple. I can't just stop thinking and feeling. And I most certainly can't fall out of love. So what can I do?