The Chase

We are endlessly chasing. Chasing something better. In our heads, we have this image of this "perfect" person that we think we, ourselves, need to become. And so we chase. We chase the things we think we need to become this "better" person. We chase material things, such as better clothes and "toys" and we chase things we can't touch, like better grades or reputations. We even chase people. And so the question arises, why do we chase?
The answer hangs in the balance. The balance between want and greed. Its so much more complex than wanting and so much simpler than greed. Its something like avidity. A big part of it, is becoming what we think we need to be so that the people that "matter" will be pleased, and the people that don't, will be pissed. But why do we need to be better? Really. When you think about, it shouldn't matter. What happens when you become better? You get invited to more things and have more friends and more opportunities to go places and be accepted? That seems like a lot of work for a lot of nothing.
But what happens when its not material things we're chasing? What happens when its people? We now not only want things, we want people. Better friends, better significant others. So we can rise higher in the social order of things. But what happens to the people we have now? Do our friends get tossed aside, thrown back, or do they rise with you? And what about our significant others? Are they chasing too?
The real question is, what happens when we get everything we were chasing? Do we sit back and smile and revel in our happiness? Not usually. We usually find our that everything we were chasing, wasn't worth chasing. And even if it is, we can't just be satisfied anymore. We've trained ourselves to think that we can get anything we want and go after more. So we won't just sit back and be happy when we get it all, we'll keep chasing. And maybe thats good, maybe its bad. Either way, its what it is. And what can we do about it?

"I've spent so much time chasing what I should be, that I forgot what I am."