Its the way that you blush when you're nervous

I wonder how it feels when everything falls into place. When you find everything that you've been looking for, yet never knew existed. When you find out that love is more than just the initial butterflies and that whole can't-stop-thinking-about-you kind of thing and more than just good sex and someone to fill that void. I would think that if you've found all that, you would feel very complete. I imagine that you would feel satisfied and everything you used to fret about would suddenly be seemingly unimportant. Most people meet someone who is everything they think that they want. Maybe they want someone with a good job and a steady income, or someone who is gonna make something of themselves or someone who is good looking, and when they find someone who meets these expectations, they date them. Likely they find this person somewhat interesting and attractive. And then, when they start having sex, they think wow ya know this person is great, they're really attractive, great in bed, blah blah blah...suddenly they think they're "in love". So they get married because thats what people in love do, right? Then after a few years and after they've had sex with this person a few thousand times, they realize they have nothing in common, nothing to talk about and, with the initial attraction and lust gone, they get bored. I think that is pretty much why over half of people get divorced or whatever that statistic is, I'm not positive. The point is, its sad that more than half of my friends parents are divorced. It scares me to the point where I don't even want to get married; what if I choose the wrong person? I don't want to be divorced. I've heard that you usually turn out like your parents and I really hope thats true. My parents are still insanely in love with each other, even after 25+ years of marriage. I wonder how that happens, I wonder how they knew? Of course I've asked them this but their responses were nondescript. My dad said he knew from the beginning that this was the woman he wanted to marry. When I asked him why, he said it was "because she was, and still is, the greatest person I know. She's put up with all of my shit for all these years and I don't think anyone else could. " When I asked her the same question, she said she wasn't sure, "he was young and goofy, kinda wild and arrogant. However, I knew he was pretty intelligent, just kind of lazy. He asked me to marry him numerous times before I said yes." Theres nothing fairytale about their responses or the story of how they met, but maybe you can't have a fairytale, maybe you're stuck with what you have and you have to make it work. Whatever the case, it always amazes me to see them still so in love, kissing and hugging and laughing and arguing and just being dumb together. When I get older, I want what they have more than I want anything else. I want, after fifty million years, to look at him, whoever he may be, the way that they look at each other. I wonder what that would feel like?