Used to be

Earlier today i was looking through some old saved conversations between me and a certain boy i used to really like. They were from last year from October to around February, less than a year ago. As I was reading over these, i was really in awe of how much different i was then, compared to how i am now. It's weird how everything changes and we don't even realize it. I used to think I was "in love" with him, whatever that means, and that he was so perfect and so amazing. Now i look back on that and realize how wrong i was. I mean i'm not saying he's not a great guy, because he is, i'm just saying he's not as amazing as I built him up to be and his interest in me is really clear to me now, whereas back then, i thought he genuinely liked me. The point of this is that its weird how feelings change. I ran into him a few nights ago, I hadn't seen him in a long time and i didn't really think i would ever see him again since he moved er whatever. We started talking and i felt nothing. I was looking at this boy i used to be obsessed with, yet i felt nothing. I was talking to the same person, looking at the same familiar face, hearing the same familiar voice, but my heart didn't race, my fingers didn't tingle and my stomach didn't do the usual flip-flop. It was just like talking to any old person and it was really kind of scary. How can you feel so strongly about someone, then feel nothing at all?