Heaven?

Have you ever thought about what happens after we die? I'm sure the thought has crossed your mind before but have you ever really sat down and thought about it? I don't think about it as much as i used to and maybe thats because it gets tiring because we'll never know the answers until we actually die and who knows how we'll comprehend it. I don't really believe in heaven with the stereotypical fluffy, white clouds and the pearly gates, but i do believe in God for the most part. I think that when you die you go to like the next level of earth... like another earth where we are born again with the same knowledge we attained in our previous life, and we learn more, love better, make mistakes and teach others... and then we die and the process repeats. I think thats a really cool concept, that we keep going up, that one day we'll all be sophisticated and intelligent and able to enjoy every little thing in life. Maybe its too much of a fairytale ending for some people but i like to think that everything we're doing here builds to something, although i tend to contradict myself often after some thought. I don't see how some people can think that everything just ends after we die. If thats true, that we actually do have an end, then whats the point of a beginning? Its weird to think we're all on this never-ending time line of trillions and trillions of years and only a centimeter of this eternal time line is ours. Thats all we stand for, all of our accomplishments, all of our relationships, all of the things we thought were significant and worthwhile mean nothing. It makes me wonder why we're always striving to do better, to be better, to accomplish more things. I mean if, in the end, none of it matters and everything we've worked for has brought us nothing more than a few minuscule trophies and momentary satisfactions, then why does it matter what we've accomplished and what we have to stand for what we were? I just don't want to grow old and realize that all of my hard work has gotten me no where. That all the times i've struggled with grades and went to bed early instead of having fun with friends got me no where, that i gained nothing more than a good GPA for it. And all the times i've tried to be "good" and made "good choices" have got me nothing more than my parents approval and a good reputation. When you really think about it, it seems so pointless. When i'm old i think i'd rather say that i had a lot of fun and laughed a lot rather than i had a good GPA and went to a good college. And maybe you can combine all of it, maybe you can have a lot of fun and still be "good"...but i guess we'll have to wait and find out.