It's kinda like you know those days where you get everything right? When you take your time doing your hair and your makeup and everything looks perfect? It's really a great feeling. But what about when you get it wrong? When you mess up your makeup or your hair or whatever and you don't look the way you want? And no matter what you do, it still isn't the way you want it? But it's just one day. Just one bad day. And you can get through that one day looking not quite good enough because you can fix it by making up for it tomorrow. Because tomorrow you get a fresh start, a clean slate. You can wash off that makeup and redo your hair and and get an extra hour of sleep. And everything is fine again, and you'll have other bad days like that but its fine because you know they can't all be like that. But what if they could? What if everyday sucked? What if everyday you woke up and realized that no matter how much sleep or how much makeup or how much hairspray you use, it still can't be fixed, can't be good?
I wish I could wake up tomorrow with a clean slate. I wish I could wake up tomorrow and not feel like this. I wish I could wake up tomorrow and not even remember who you are. And I wish I could wash it all away. But I can't, because I could stand under a steaming hot shower, and I could get rid of all my makeup and all the hairspray from the day before, but I can't get rid of you. No matter what I do, that imperfection is still there. I can't fix it, can't wash it off. And it sucks, it really sucks. And I don't know how to fix it, because I've tried everything and the only things I believed in, don't make sense anymore. And it all happened so fast that I don't even know what happened, much less how. I want to go back, more than anything else, but I can't, and I know I can't. And god, it sucks. It's the worst thing in the world. And I wish someone would tell me what to do, but then again I don't because I wouldn't listen anyway. And I want to scream, but I won't. And I want to cry, but I won't. And I want to just melt into the ground, but I can't. And I want it to go away, but it won't, and it can't. But more than anything, I want you. And it wasn't supposed to be like this, what happened to all those promises?
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You know I have felt this feeling before..you try to forget things but you just cant seem to...you wake up everday thinking about it...you go through your day and you think about it when you dont want to...you go to sleep and you think about...
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